First off I hate when people ask me "are you left-handed?" Yes everyone i'm left-handed! I also hate when people ask me "why do you have your paper turned like that?" Well one reason is so I can feel comfortable and the other reason is so I don't get lead or pen ink on my hand!!! OH! One last thing is CAN THE PEOPLE THAT MAKE THE SUPPLIES MAKE THEM FOR LEFT HANDED PEOPLE TOO! PLEASE AND THANK YOU :)
I think since I haven't been able to sleep very well i'm feeling sick... I'm having tummy aches, dizzy spells, trouble sleeping and its just annoying. Or maybe i'm just getting sick :( idk but ugh go away! Another thing is i'm rethinking about things that I don't want to rethink about...and asking myself "why did you do it?" "Did you really wanna do it?" "How are you really feeling about this?" "Is there really any feeling from it?" "Do you wanna fall in love again in the future..." "that shouldn't even be a question.." "why am I always having chest pains now?" "maybe its heartache..nahh you threw that shit to the side." "anxiety?" "probably, because you're always shaking." "But what would you get anxiety from..?" "Screw all this bullshit and live your life day by day..."
School is coming and I have like no classes with any of my friends! :( sucks butt.. Although i'm kinda happy that its going to start soon because I get to focus on the work and distract myself from all the thoughts :). Also I get to start my program which is Patient Care and I have one of my teachers from last year who's going to be teaching it :D! Lunch I have no idea which one I have and hopefully I have it with my best friends reggie and ja'lyn :)... It's Junior year baby! ONE MORE YEAR THEN I'M OUT :). After I graduate I want to take a trip to go see my other best friends that live in Orange,TX! I miss them so much its been to long since we seen each other. :( This year one last STAAR state test then its all about the SAT...
There's one part of my brain that tells me being strong is the best thing you can do for yourself because if not you're going to lose yourself and will not be able to get it back because of everything you been through. The other side tells me its okay if you wanna cry, i'll try guiding you back to yourself..but of course which side wins the side that tells me to be strong because I know I wouldn't be able to get back to the person I am. I would be to stuck in the past and honey let me tell you i'm not the type of person to take a step forward then take two steps back into the past ha I gotta be trippin to do that..I am gonna break free from those chains and move on forward to the future!
P.S. i'm so proud of myself guys because i'm finally thinning out again and getting back to my old weight :D :)
"I'm emotionally stronger than what I look.."
God Bless :)
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