The 5 F's

Have you ever wondered what the 5 F's are? Really think about it, no not in a dirty way you perverts! But in a way that somewhat makes sense.

P.s, when I can't sleep the best thing for me, is to read or write and I already tried the first one so here we go!

Number 1. Fear, number 2. Faith, number 3. Family, number 4. Friends, and last but not least of them all number 5. Fight. Now, what are the actually meaning of these five words? Fear- an unpleasant feeling that something or someone is dangerous. Faith- complete trust or confidence in someone or something or in a religious way. Family- a group consisting of parents and children living together in a household. Friends- a person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection. Fight- a violent confrontation or struggle. 

I'm going to open up and tell you all the reason I can't seem to sleep. My dear mother hasn't been feeling well so she went to the doctor today and now she is admitted to the hospital and I'm really worried about her. As of right now I have these five F's.

I am feeling Fear because of what I have been told is not the best news to hear when you are only seventeen and you have a seven-year-old brother and an eighteen-year-old sister. I know I must have your brain wondering what happen or what's going on. I'm not going to tell you what happen but I will give you some information if you want to research yourself to figure it out. My mother has been feeling as if her whole body is like jello, she's more tired than normally, she feels dizzy and she would lose her thoughts and couldn't remember things that she just did. For example, she was filling up the sink for dish water and went outside but when she came back in she wondered what was that sound, she goes into the kitchen and see the sink is overflowing and she finally remembered that she had turned it on. Weird right? No, not at all its actually concerning,

I have Faith because I know that my mom is strong enough to push through this and she'll be back running around the house yelling at us because we won't clean up our messes. I believe god will be with her telling her that its just a matter of time she will be back here with us and she doesn't have to worry about a thing because he has it under control. I know that my mom knows that her Faith is too strong to be bullied by an illness.

I have Family and Friends that are here for me to lean on when I get tired of being strong and I just want to let everything go. I have them so I don't have to keep all of my emotions and thoughts to myself. I have them but they also have me when they are in distress or pain or anything I'm here just as they are for me. When I can't be my own backbone they are the ones to be my backbone to hold me high and tall while I try to Fight.


I must Fight because my mom can't fight alone. I must fight because if there is no effort then there is no reason. My mother will always be a reason to Fight and a reason to have Faith. I would do it for her because she's taught me that no matter how hard life can get she will always be there as a mother, a parent, and as my Family.

The Beauty of Life and the Ocean

Hello, everyone! Here's something that might be inspirational to you and if it is try writing about it...Don't understand, well wait and see at the end!

This past weekend I went to the beach at like one o'clock in the morning. Yeah, yeah I know I'm crazy but I did it anyways! As I was sitting there I asked myself a few questions which were: 1. What does the beach inspire you to do? 2. How do you feel when looking at the beach? 3. What do you want to do when looking at the beach?

First question first. What does the beach inspire me to do? Well, as I was looking at the beach for awhile after asking myself I answered with: The beach inspires me to go beyond the seeing point in life (now you see that I compare my life with the beach.) Do some of you compare your life to the beach or other things around you if you don't live by one or don't go to one? 

Secondly! What do you feel when looking at the beach? While I was looking at the beach for a long while I answered with: When I look at the beach I feel peaceful. Some of you would ask why peaceful? Well here's why: The waves on the beach are being tumbled the whole time until they hit the shore when hitting they become peaceful then go back to repeat the process constantly. Also because as the waves remind me of the way my life is I find myself finding comfort as the waves come to shore to comfort the earth.

Last of all the third question. What do you want to do when looking at the beach? What I would want to do when looking at the beach is to write, inspire, cry but most of all is to BE THE BEACH ITSELF! Tumbled and tired but at the end of the day PEACEFUL!


If you want you can answer these questions yourself in the comments below or you can email me if you just want only me to know. stephaniebenavides84@gmail.com

All of our lives are beautiful and so are our souls. No matter what you are going through you will come through it and don't give up! 

God Bless :)