Hear Me

There's a thunderstorm coming our way
Wait! I need some time to think
No, no, no it's starting to rain
Oh can I get a break!
A break you say!? There's no such way
Maybe I can run from the pain, the game, or even the shame
But wait, I don't have to run when I have been saved
By a powerful man who constantly
Whispers my name, telling me
My child everything will be okay
And I say in Jesus name
I trust you!

What is..

   What is your dream? What is it that you want to do? What is your plan? What does your future look like in your eyes? What is your passion? Now, think about it for 5 seconds before answering then start with the first question. Mine will be listed below and more.

   I know these questions repeat the same thing but it's only to make sure what you want to do is not going to change and that you are sure about your future. Btw Thank You for all the views!!! We have reached 2,015!! I appreciate loves! 

1. What is your dream?  -My dream is to have a company that helps people in different countries,cities,towns,etc. Help them how? I want to help people to get their full education that they haven't got the chance to do it. I want to help those who are homeless and those who ran away from home. Once again how? Well, I want to buy a big house with enough rooms so if you need a place to stay you have one while you're continuing your education or finding a career/job so you can provide for yourself with no charge but to at least help around the house when needed. Now, the company doesn't have a name yet but not only will it have this house it will be a company that will help other companies and it will be finding ways to give other countries what we have and they don't like technology, schools, books, light, running water, food, healthcare, etc. 
2. What is it you want to do? -I want to change the world. I want to help people the best I can. I want to be able to look at what I have done and be proud and happy that I've made an impact in the world and change people's lives for the better and not the worst. I want to be able to not worry about how much money I have to pay bills or how much I need to have food for a whole month or worry if it is okay to use some money to buy new clothes or shoes without losing the roof over my head. I want to worry and stress-free of that and to be able to take care of my mom the way she has for me since I was born. That's what I want. To worry free.
3. What is your plan? -My plan is to graduate high school this year! Then, go to college with a scholarship if I'm able to and graduate from there. Next, my plan is to get my company on the road after working for awhile to build it and start getting people who are willing to take a part in my dream with me. Also to get grants so the people who are going to stay at the house will be taken care of and can get their education right there and find a job. 
4. What does your future look like in your eyes? -In my eyes, my future looks bright but also bumpy because there will be bad times but I will make my dream happen. I am determined to make it happen if I don't get it to happen I will consider myself a failure and that I gave up. I won't give up ever! This is my life! 
5. What is your passion? -My passion is to help people and to change the world in my own way. One day I will make it happen, One day it will be great. One day I'll be worry free. Just one day.

Whatever it is you want in life or whatever your passion is, go after it. Don't pass it up and don't give up. There will always be a chance to go after your passion. 

#BeStrong

Reasons why it's Important to have a Father

   Most of you know that I've lost my father at a young age if you read my past blogs, but if you didn't now you know. I'm writing this blog because I know there are others out there who have lost a father too, no matter if you are a female or male it could go in both ways. Therefore, I'm going to try my best to write in male and female versions of certain things that we might think about when it comes to certain things in life or on a daily basis.
 But first off for those who don't know I lost my father at the age of 10, and so far its only been 5 years without him and there's not a day that I don't think or want him here with me.

#1 The struggles of being a young lady or man. Everyone needs a father, right? Would some or most agree? Having a father in your life can show you a lot of different things like love,discipline,how to have self-respect,how to fix things, wisdom,and most of all how to be brave. Let's start with love, a father should love his child more than anything in the world (not including beliefs) and they should show it instead of hiding it because it helps the child know but can also give them the hope or confidence they need. When my father showed me that he loved me with all his heart I knew that I had hope for anything and everything in this world or even in people. Next is discipline, a father can show a child that having discipline for themselves or him giving discipline comes with the self-respect and in general just having respect. For example, my father told my sister and I that we couldn't leave the house in short shorts because that's having no respect for yourself or when we would talk back to our mother my father would spank us or ground us for a week.(which was no fun at all!) Then there's how to fix things or even paint (in my case anyways). Father's are good at knowing how to fix things up or even paint something. My father was a carpenter so for me it was learning how to paint, use a hammer, screwdrivers, and much more tools that I can't remember anymore. I do miss the smells that were always around me. The smell of fresh cut plywood, the smell of paint and the smell of hardwood floor polish. I even miss the sounds of the tools and his demanding voice telling someone to grab the nails and a hammer. The last two are bravery and wisdom, a father can show a child that there are things that seem scary but you can be brave and get through it or he could show them the wisdom he got when he did the same thing they are doing, did or trying to do. 
 So the struggles of being a young lady or man are when not having a father can be tough because when it's time for science fair or even getting into trouble there will be only one person to turn too. Yes, mothers are capable of trying to help and tell you the certain things you need to hear but sometimes it won't be from the person you wish it was from nor will you even listen to her until the second or third time it happens and you realize the mistake that has been done. I hope children come to realize that whatever parent they have is trying or going to try their best to teach them everything they need to know to be able to get through things.

#2 Having issues with the boy/girlfriend. I know for a fact that most children will run to their parents for advice about relationships because they feel comfortable talking to them about it and they know that they have a lot of experience of it. When my father was around I never got the chance to even talk to him about boys for the simple fact that his rule was no eyes on boys only eyes on books! Therefore, after he passed I always went to my mom for help because that's when things became different at school; I had that freedom to look where I wanted without hearing almost every day "boys are bad for you and books are good for you." Although I wish I would have stayed away from them because of the heartaches. Now guys would go to their father's to ask "how do I make something up to her?" or "Dad I don't understand this feeling I have when I'm with her." I'm going to tell you this, you can also go to your mom because she can help too! I know that it could be hard because you were closer to your father but if you want real good advice she'll be the second best to him.
 I remember when my father told my sister and me that boys have cooties and if we kissed them or if they kissed us we would get pregnant! My sister and I freaked out and feared of getting or kissing a boy. We were only 4 and 5 years old at the time of learning that information.

#3 Comparing the boyfriend to your father. (Sorry to most guys out there but this is a major deal for the ladies.) Ladies, I know that you must compare your boyfriends to your father to see if he's the one for you because the simple fact that everyone in the world knows that every girl's father is their first love. When your father is gone you remember everything about them. Who they were, what they were like, what they smelled like, what they did with you, how they showed love to you and so on. Now, I know for sure I always compare the guy I'm dating at the time with my father to see if they're anything alike. Which has turned out to a no so far but I'm not giving up I've got a long life ahead of me still! Therefore ladies and/or males I encourage you to try it and don't think it's a bad thing if you already do it because there are others out there who do it take me as an example. My father was a person who loved to help others with what he could, he was a strong, wise, funny, and loveable man, he smelled really good I mean so good that everyone who smelled his fell in love with him. My father would play around with me, teach me how to work hard and get a job done and show me how to make your own BBQ sauce, he would show me love by telling me, picking on me, giving me long warm tight (not too tight so I can breath) hugs and looking at me with his warm dark brown eyes with his famous smirk after doing the listed things above. I remember comparing my ex with my father because in a way I thought they were alike but I was wrong. I realized that my father always knew how to comfort me when I needed it and I thought I had that comfort with my ex but then it came to me that it wasn't comforting it was something else. So again I encourage you to try comparing them two together. Good Luck and Be Strong!
**These are just my opinions, I'm sure people can disagree with me but I am just speaking from my heart.**
 Always remember that a guy will never replace your father nor will he replace the love that he gave and showed you. Remember that your father is never gone that he's with you in your heart.

Thank you to my favorite blogger who is also family +Bredonda rae . If you get the chance also check out her blog its one of the best! I also want to thank everyone who reads my blog y'all are the reason I try my best to make my writing better each time. Thank you for the support you give me. I will try to get TWS back on track please help if you want to see amazing tales again!!

How Do You Know

Hey, everyone! I know I haven't written in awhile and I really have a certain topic on my mind that I really have been thinking about for awhile especially since it's getting close to my senior year of high school and I'm kinda starting to freak out a bit. 

How do you know what exactly you want to do after you graduate from high school? Is that a thing? To know. I use to think I knew what I wanted to do in life after high school but after doing my Continuing Education Classes from Galveston College I sort of realized that maybe becoming a doctor really isn't for me... I know I know that I can't just judge by just taking a couple of classes but this is what I came down too.

One is that I will never be able to work with elders because I feel like I'm going to hurt them or even tear their skin. I bet you did know that you could rip someone's skin! Secondly, is that  I can't take blood from elders because since I know that I could hurt them I don't want to take the chance of actually doing it. I had no problem taking blood from younger people but it's the elders that stop me in my tracks because no matter where I'm working there's going to be elders coming in to be worked on and I just can't..

That's where the how do you know what you are going to do after high school comes in. I have these ideas that I could do but I'm not sure if its something I'm going to be into or if I'm going to enjoy it.. I just wish that this career thing was so much easier that what it is. Some people say "nah you're just overthinking it!" and I say "Its easier said then done.." 

I've thought of being a doctor of course, then being a nurse, then going into the military, or become the person who checks the body for law enforcement when there is a murder..what is called? Forenic Science, right? Then I also thought of going into autopsy, where you open the dead body and find the cause of death but then I thought do you really want to be around death all the time. My answer of course was "no!!" 

So do you know what you wanna do as your career? Or are you just as stuck like me? Well who really knows what you are going to do but I just hope that you enjoy doing it everyday. Thank you for reading and relating if you can or ever did once upon a time.

Until next time loves, God Bless :)

The 5 F's

Have you ever wondered what the 5 F's are? Really think about it, no not in a dirty way you perverts! But in a way that somewhat makes sense.

P.s, when I can't sleep the best thing for me, is to read or write and I already tried the first one so here we go!

Number 1. Fear, number 2. Faith, number 3. Family, number 4. Friends, and last but not least of them all number 5. Fight. Now, what are the actually meaning of these five words? Fear- an unpleasant feeling that something or someone is dangerous. Faith- complete trust or confidence in someone or something or in a religious way. Family- a group consisting of parents and children living together in a household. Friends- a person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection. Fight- a violent confrontation or struggle. 

I'm going to open up and tell you all the reason I can't seem to sleep. My dear mother hasn't been feeling well so she went to the doctor today and now she is admitted to the hospital and I'm really worried about her. As of right now I have these five F's.

I am feeling Fear because of what I have been told is not the best news to hear when you are only seventeen and you have a seven-year-old brother and an eighteen-year-old sister. I know I must have your brain wondering what happen or what's going on. I'm not going to tell you what happen but I will give you some information if you want to research yourself to figure it out. My mother has been feeling as if her whole body is like jello, she's more tired than normally, she feels dizzy and she would lose her thoughts and couldn't remember things that she just did. For example, she was filling up the sink for dish water and went outside but when she came back in she wondered what was that sound, she goes into the kitchen and see the sink is overflowing and she finally remembered that she had turned it on. Weird right? No, not at all its actually concerning,

I have Faith because I know that my mom is strong enough to push through this and she'll be back running around the house yelling at us because we won't clean up our messes. I believe god will be with her telling her that its just a matter of time she will be back here with us and she doesn't have to worry about a thing because he has it under control. I know that my mom knows that her Faith is too strong to be bullied by an illness.

I have Family and Friends that are here for me to lean on when I get tired of being strong and I just want to let everything go. I have them so I don't have to keep all of my emotions and thoughts to myself. I have them but they also have me when they are in distress or pain or anything I'm here just as they are for me. When I can't be my own backbone they are the ones to be my backbone to hold me high and tall while I try to Fight.


I must Fight because my mom can't fight alone. I must fight because if there is no effort then there is no reason. My mother will always be a reason to Fight and a reason to have Faith. I would do it for her because she's taught me that no matter how hard life can get she will always be there as a mother, a parent, and as my Family.

The Beauty of Life and the Ocean

Hello, everyone! Here's something that might be inspirational to you and if it is try writing about it...Don't understand, well wait and see at the end!

This past weekend I went to the beach at like one o'clock in the morning. Yeah, yeah I know I'm crazy but I did it anyways! As I was sitting there I asked myself a few questions which were: 1. What does the beach inspire you to do? 2. How do you feel when looking at the beach? 3. What do you want to do when looking at the beach?

First question first. What does the beach inspire me to do? Well, as I was looking at the beach for awhile after asking myself I answered with: The beach inspires me to go beyond the seeing point in life (now you see that I compare my life with the beach.) Do some of you compare your life to the beach or other things around you if you don't live by one or don't go to one? 

Secondly! What do you feel when looking at the beach? While I was looking at the beach for a long while I answered with: When I look at the beach I feel peaceful. Some of you would ask why peaceful? Well here's why: The waves on the beach are being tumbled the whole time until they hit the shore when hitting they become peaceful then go back to repeat the process constantly. Also because as the waves remind me of the way my life is I find myself finding comfort as the waves come to shore to comfort the earth.

Last of all the third question. What do you want to do when looking at the beach? What I would want to do when looking at the beach is to write, inspire, cry but most of all is to BE THE BEACH ITSELF! Tumbled and tired but at the end of the day PEACEFUL!


If you want you can answer these questions yourself in the comments below or you can email me if you just want only me to know. stephaniebenavides84@gmail.com

All of our lives are beautiful and so are our souls. No matter what you are going through you will come through it and don't give up! 

God Bless :)

The One

I am writing a normal blog today because I haven't written one in a while and also because I want to share a few things on my mind with yall. First, I want to let you know to live life the way you want to because you never know when your last day on this beautiful earth is and that I had to write a poem today in my English class and I really want to share it with yall today. So here it goes!


                                                                    The One

You were the one that I loved most
You were the one who held me close
You were the one who wiped my tears
But now you are nowhere near.

You were the one who told me its okay
You were the one who made me feel safe
You were the one who disappeared.

You were the one who was so dear
You were the one who was the only one
You were the one who died at night.

You were the one who flew high in the sky
You were the one the only one
You are the one who is nowhere near
You were my father who disappeared.

You were the one...





I really hope you guys like it or love it. It's deep but only because it's what I feel and I always tell yall how I feel :)

God Bless Everyone..