The 5 F's

Have you ever wondered what the 5 F's are? Really think about it, no not in a dirty way you perverts! But in a way that somewhat makes sense.

P.s, when I can't sleep the best thing for me, is to read or write and I already tried the first one so here we go!

Number 1. Fear, number 2. Faith, number 3. Family, number 4. Friends, and last but not least of them all number 5. Fight. Now, what are the actually meaning of these five words? Fear- an unpleasant feeling that something or someone is dangerous. Faith- complete trust or confidence in someone or something or in a religious way. Family- a group consisting of parents and children living together in a household. Friends- a person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection. Fight- a violent confrontation or struggle. 

I'm going to open up and tell you all the reason I can't seem to sleep. My dear mother hasn't been feeling well so she went to the doctor today and now she is admitted to the hospital and I'm really worried about her. As of right now I have these five F's.

I am feeling Fear because of what I have been told is not the best news to hear when you are only seventeen and you have a seven-year-old brother and an eighteen-year-old sister. I know I must have your brain wondering what happen or what's going on. I'm not going to tell you what happen but I will give you some information if you want to research yourself to figure it out. My mother has been feeling as if her whole body is like jello, she's more tired than normally, she feels dizzy and she would lose her thoughts and couldn't remember things that she just did. For example, she was filling up the sink for dish water and went outside but when she came back in she wondered what was that sound, she goes into the kitchen and see the sink is overflowing and she finally remembered that she had turned it on. Weird right? No, not at all its actually concerning,

I have Faith because I know that my mom is strong enough to push through this and she'll be back running around the house yelling at us because we won't clean up our messes. I believe god will be with her telling her that its just a matter of time she will be back here with us and she doesn't have to worry about a thing because he has it under control. I know that my mom knows that her Faith is too strong to be bullied by an illness.

I have Family and Friends that are here for me to lean on when I get tired of being strong and I just want to let everything go. I have them so I don't have to keep all of my emotions and thoughts to myself. I have them but they also have me when they are in distress or pain or anything I'm here just as they are for me. When I can't be my own backbone they are the ones to be my backbone to hold me high and tall while I try to Fight.


I must Fight because my mom can't fight alone. I must fight because if there is no effort then there is no reason. My mother will always be a reason to Fight and a reason to have Faith. I would do it for her because she's taught me that no matter how hard life can get she will always be there as a mother, a parent, and as my Family.